and Mama made them all come up to be looked etc. I, Cinderella, went to bed in good time but was awakened at three by Bella who kept me awake with her adventures till 4, but as they were very pleasant or “plaisants” I did not mind.

Thursday 16 - Jacinto and Mr Hewson called early. I but quietly wrote up this and mended stockings while I taught Charlie as usual. Fanny, Harry and I drank tea at Mrs Wynters. She was looking much worse than I ever saw her, and was unable to sing, so Fanny and I played to her almost all the evening.

Friday 17 - Went to Church and called at the Haywards principally to see Mr Smith who returned today in the Vernon from Tenerife and is much the better. The Tripps appeared before we had taken off our bonnets and Mr Lowe, the Dicks, Wynters, Mr Cunningham with Miranda and Agostinho for the violin and violincello arrived before 6. The music was even better than last time in consequence of the increased number of instruments and between the acts I talked to Frank about theatres, balls etc in a most interesting manner. They made me play Hummels Nocturne, but I was so frightened that I played villainously and then every one including Mama and Mr Lowe told me I played very well. Mr Lowe did not know it well and did not play either so well as he might but I did not tell him so as he was so kind to tell me I played very well. We had supper at 11.

Saturday 18 - Bella and I went to call on the Jordan Hill Smiths who were not at home or at least not visible, then at Mrs Stoddart where we bought some lawn.

Sunday 19 - Two very nice sermons. I read some tracts lent me by Mr Hewson by a Mr Faber. They are a kind of abbreviation and simplification of the Oxford tracts and delightfully written. Mr Davor called while we were at tea to take leave as he sails in the Vernon and uninvited spent the evening with us. He threw us into the greatest dismay by saying he had heard from authority that the Scotch were going to sent a petition to Government for permission for a Presbyterian to perform service in our Church every other Sunday. We determined that if this should be carried into effective would rush away immediately to New Zealand and take the Lowes with us of course they could no stay here, and they besides are not very well off for clergyman in New Zealand.

Monday 20^th - Papa attended poor Miss Sheppard’s funeral and Mr Lowe told him to our great satisfaction that they could do nothing improper with the Church as long as he lived. I began writing to Arthur till Jane Wallas came and we had dinner. Marion arrived soon after and we then proceeded to the Convent where Bella masqueraded as usual and excited the pity of Mr Cunningham for having to bear the gaze of 400 admiring eyes belonging to the people who came to see the convent, and who many of them were persuaded that she was the beautiful Maria Clementina. I walked in the garden and sat in the chapel with Jane Wallas and her two attendants Macworth, Shore and Mr Eustace, and Mr Cunningham who gave me avocados and asked me to waltz which I declined. We had a little pao de lo’se in Anna Iphigenia’s ale but no regular dinner as it was so late. I walked home with the Wallases as far as they went having by the way some rather interesting conversation in the course of which Marion expressed her opinion that I was the most interested and calculating girl she ever knew. We also laid a wager which I expect to win but shall not be sorry to lose. We came home horribly tired but after resting a little and refreshing ourselves with tea Bella and I set forth to attend another of Mrs Rosses conversaziones. I was at first so sleepy that I could hardly listen to what Mrs Ross was talking about tho’ a very interesting subject, i.e, love, but presently Arabella coming in I went to her and we had a most animated conversation chiefly about Mr Lowe at first, but as that subject was too exciting and I was growing unpleasantly heated we changed it and talked of warm hearts, self denial etc. I must record one compliment she paid me, for proceeding as it did from the lips ( and heart too I think) of so very sage and sober young lady, it made me not a little vain. I was lamenting the necessity I was under of going to a ball next Wednesday, saying that I expected to sit in a corner all the time and go to sleep, pathetically lamenting that nobody liked me and a specially young gentleman. “What fools they must be then!” she immediately exclaimed. She also told me that her father liked me very much, at which I much wondered. I was quite rested by 11 o’clock when we had some food and walked home with the Wynters, Oliveiras and Dr Rupe who has brought us a letter from Tenerife.

Thursday 21 - I finished a long letter to Arthur and the Vernon sailed. We went to the Haywards and read some time, and then walked on the river side with Julia.

Wednesday 22 - Mrs Wynter came after church and was remarkably kind to me but we were soon obliged to leave her to go to an intolerably stupid party at the Temples – about 40. I sat down two quadrilles and danced the remainder with Tom Wardrop, Duff Gordon and Messrs Dick and Bayman. The latter was passable and talked about the Romans being very angry with me for hating them. My principal consolation was the recollection of Arabella’s speech, Mrs Wynter’s kindness and Marion Wallas, who told me that Mr Hewson during a walk that morning on the river side had told her in a parenthesis, for his discourses was principally on Bella’s charming qualities, that he though from the little he had heard me say that I had a beautiful and cultivated mind. I much rejoice at this good opinion of me but must grieve nevertheless that it should be so ill founded. We were not allowed to come away till 1 when as the quadrille player suddenly disappeared, all the company were obliged to depart, I hope not many of them so willingly as I did.

Thursday 23 - Rose at 7 neither tired nor excited, so I don’t think Mr Cunningham himself would have said it had done me harm. Mr B. Smith called while we were all dancing, and Mama continuing to give the lesson as if nothing had happened he rose presently in disgust, and Mama to pacify him asked him for tomorrow. Robert Temple and Mr Bayman begged very much to be allowed to hear Mama read Shakespeare, so she admitted them this evening, and they were both much delighted and are to come again.

Friday 24 - I read Fleur D ’Epino all day not being very well, and did not go to Church. In the evening we had a larger party than ever before, i.e, Marion and Jane Wallas, Mr and Mrs Carter, Mr and Mrs Park, Messrs Smith, Hewson, the two Haywards, Mary Oliveira and Miss Ross, besides the performers, whose number was increased by Edward Licio who played the flute. I sat all the evening in the armchair between the Wallases and was very happy tho’ still sick as the music was better than ever. Mr Lowe, Mrs Park, Julia and Mrs Wynter sang a little of the Creation together and also a beautiful Italian song supposed to be sung by the Jews approaching – very melancholy just like a dirge, but poor Mrs Wynter looked more like a corpse than ever and was not able to sing much. Jane seemed to enjoy it immensely and begged to come again. Marion is not very fond of music so did not enjoy it so much and besides was much out of humour at seeing herself obliged to give up the contest with Bella. After supper the wretched Miss Dick insisted on having a quadrille which the people were obliged to dance and Fanny and I played, and then they all went away except Mr Hewson who slept here as he is not allowed to go out at night any more.

Saturday 25 - St Paul, so they all went to Church, except Mama and me. The Packet came in and brought very satisfactory letters from the Grandmother, Mrs Hoskine, Mr Hourtly and Dr Calvert, and a very pitiful one which made us all cry from Mrs Hughes telling Mama to go and tell Mrs Langford that her last remaining sister Mrs Cole was dead after three days illness. So Mama immediately went up to the Maravilhas[1]. I had also a long epistle from Mary Ann Finning, who has been spending a fortnight a Kent Terrace and gives a very good account on Mrs Margery who is looking very well and has 9 pretty and nice pupils. Bella brought Arabella home from Church to comfort me in my sickness so I read the letter aloud for her benefit, and was much socked and disgusted at various schoolgirl expressions and ideas with which it abounds. Till dinner time we entertained her with lectures on tidiness and in order that she might put them in practice as soon as possible Bella did her hair. I lent her a collar, and she descended into the drawing room almost in perfect tidiness. I practised into dinner till Mr Hewson returned. He had dined at the Haywards and presently Mr Bayman and Robert Temple appeared and Mama finished Henry V before tea, and then began Henry VI but was not able to finish it before she became tired and sent all away but Mr Hewson who again slept. Arabella was very aimable, took our scolding very meekly and kissed me when she went away for the first time in her life. I had kissed her once before by mistake.

Sunday 26 - Mr Hewson was compelled to say his catechism with us in the library, but was much disgraced by not being able to say it, not even knowing whether to reply Frederic or Hewson to the first question. He walked to Church with us and it appears to me now that we talked in rather too confidential a manner to him considering the shortness of our acquaintance. Bella confessing that three years ago she did not know the meaning of the word Christian, and I that I was a Manichen, which is very true. Mr Lowe preached a most beautiful sermon, and Jane Wallas was the only one of her family returning home, so we walked with her and when we separated Mr Hewson sent his cousin with her and came on with us, and then we stood about ½ an hour talking very fast till dinner bell rang. After evening church we walked in the burial ground, Mr Hewson brought me the Christian year to show me something we had been talking of and I brought it home as I want to read it. In the evening read Mrs Sherwood.

Monday 27 - The Tripps called and Mama treated them as she had Mr Smith. Mrs Luxford and Mr Lowe called and talked in a very amusing manner of some mutual friends till Mrs Wynter came. She gave us a long lesson but poor lady she seems worse than ever though she eat something at tea. Poor Mr Wynter who came as usual to fetch her is also beginning to look quite broken hearted.

Friday 28 - Dr Oliveira sent us his horses to ride up to the Lowes by invitation with Mr Hewson, but he alas sent only his cousin with an apology, he being confined to his room with a headache. So we rode up with poor little slow Mr Montgomery and found the Lowes at dessert. They presently took us into the drawing room to see the cabinet of shells which I thought very pretty but the shells ugly, for which they scolded me, and they laughed at me for being frightened the other Friday and at Bella because they said Mr Deane set his hat at her, in short they were both very kind and charming and when Mr Lowe had taught us how to make the trays and fixed on the sized we departed. We encountered Mr Bayman on the Levada so Bella walked with him and I wish the other man as we had set down on horses. We separated at the Wallase’s door, where Bella and I had a nice evening. We had tea while the elders were at dinner, and talked an immensity of rubbish as ever and then proceeded to turn over Mrs Wallases drawers to see the pretty thing she had brought from England. I went with Jane into the schoolroom to hear her play the harp while I read the World of Fashion, and then we talked of various things, she principally of her affection for me, till they called us to dinner, and then we went home before 10. the girls say their father and mother are so fond of us that we are the only girls in Madeira the former likes us to associate with.

Wednesday 29 - I went out shopping with MH and on my return Jacinto and then Mr Hewson called. Bella had a cold and was in bed so they were both very stupid and slow. To be sure, the melancholy of the former may be attributed to the departure of his family who are all gone to Lisbon to pass the remainder of their lives. Mama was called away at ½ past 12 by Tom Slap to help at the Leacocks. Poor Mrs Leacock having died at about 11 just as she had given birth to a little girl. We went to Church and saw a great many unhappy faces especially poor Mr Langford who says his child will die if they don’t soon get a nurse. Mama had returned when we came home but was just going out again to look for a nurse for the little Langford which she found and then Papa and she took her up to Mr Maravilhas and drank tea. We were to have drank tea at the Rosses but not feeling much disposed for gaiety we sent an excuse and staid at home.

Thursday 30 - MH spent the morning with us. We went to the Haywards and while the poor Miss Smith funeral passed by, and Mrs Leacock was also buried poor lady. Papa was at both. Mr Montgomery read with us but villainously, and Mr Hewson who also assisted told me I read like out of an English book, which was not however very true. We then went all to Mr Pickens but as he had no new pictures and his room was rather suffocating Julia and I escaped and talked of the poor lady. She suffered horrible agonies when she died, but her poor husband and Father and Mother who came out to take care of her having a presentiment she would die, are most to be pitied. We read quietly in the evening, Mama had been again nearly all day comforting the Leacocks. They seem almost more broke hearted than yesterday.

Friday 31 - Mr Hewson called. I saw him not. We had no music in the evening of course. Some of them went to Church but Fanny and I went to pay Valle visits. The Luxfords and Johnsons were gone to Church also some of the Tripps. Three of them whom are gone to the Portela, a large picnic of the Rosses. We found the Muirs at home and the Sheppards who are still looking rather melancholy but Sophie exceedingly pretty. We encountered Mr Cunningham a little below the Valle and he walked home with me and we talked rather quickly about Ancient Christianiaty which he has begun. I read Probus aloud in the evening.

Saturday. February 1^st. Papa read to us some letters relating to a row which has taken place between Charles Blandy the Secretary of the book club and Mr Jones. The former evidently to blame. Mr Tripp called, but I practised.

Sunday 2^nd. All the Leacocks at Church, and Mrs Sealy looking so like Mrs Leacock as she knelt at the Comunion table that it was quite melancholy. We walked with the Wallases and Mr Hewson both morning and evening, and the latter and I made some progress towards intimacy. In the evening I read Dr Chalmer’s Astronomical Discourses which I like excessively.

Monday 3^rd - Harriet and I were at Mr Wynters by appointment a little after 8. I expecting to have a quiet ride with Mr Cunningham, and he and Mr Wynter having promised to go with us to Cabo Girão, but he having invited the two most juvenile Tripps they made a point of interrupting us as soon as we began to talk of anything interesting, but alas I am beginning to fear he is not highly intellectual or even sensible, but he most certainly is very good, innocent and handsome. We had a delightful weather and a splendid view of the precipice at about 12 o’clock, which when we had well admired we sat on some stones and devoured, then looked again but could see nothing as the mist had risen, some went on further and sat on some stones where I listened very quietly in the nonsense they were talking with the children, till being rested we returned to our horses which we had left at half an hour’s walk from the view. We then rode on the Câmara de Lobos where we dismounted, and Mr Wynter and I sat on the rocks quietly talking to little to beggars, while the others were seated on another rock above us which I had not courage to climb. Having staid there an hour and a half enjoying the cool breeze we again proceeded on our way and reached home about 5, I with a tremendous headache which caused me presently to retire to rest.

Tuesday 4^th - Mr Cunningham called to enquire after me, and told me he had not been able to sleep for dreaming that I was tumbling over the rock and he jumping after me. Mama but had the cruelty to say it proceeded from indigestion caused by eating too much dinner! Marion and Mr Hewson came to go with us to the convent, and we had a nice walk there, I principally with Marion. We then returned with her to the bridge, and she went home and Mr Hewson came with us as far as his house, he and I all the way quarrelling and abusing one another in the most charming manner, but we parted very good friends altho’ my last words to him were “For shame” you ought to he ashamed of yourself” which words were heard by Mr Dick who wanted to know what had provoked them but was not satisfied. We then went on to the Shores, and were soon followed by Mama and Papa, Mrs Ross and Dr Macauly. After tea we walked in the balcony and Louisa seemed so grateful to me for talking to her and to like her so much that I staid with her all the evening occasionally joined by Mrs Shore, who gave me very good advice on the subject of novel reading, to which I listened with deference, but remained unconvinced that novels and plenty of them are not the best reading in the world for improving and expanding the mind. I had also some conversation on the subject with Mackworth, to whom I believe I imparted some new ideas, of which Mr Eustace, a gentlemanly and handsome but rather owlish youth, had the benefit and seemed much amused. We were all astonished when we heard it was past 11, and walked down with the Rosses, after a very nice evening.

Wednesday 5^th - Mr Hewson came to read the Forest Sanctuary to Bella, and as I thought I should be employing my time better in practising than listening to poetry I went and played Fidelia with great diligence. We all went to Church and a party was nearly arranged for the Curral on Friday to consist of Bella, Arabella and the Hewsons, but in the evening as we were all playing Mackworth brought a note from Ara saying that her Mama did not approve of the party unchaperoned, and as our Mother was of the same opinion, the Curral was given up, for no Chaperone is to be procured.

Thursday 6^th - Marion and Jane called, and Mr Hewson who staid an immense time in the counting house listening to the rights of the Jones and Blandy row. The former has been infamously treated. Then he came upstairs and was in great distress because Bella had no horse to go with him and the Wallases to the Palheiro. Before dinner Bella and I called on the Carters, Provosts and Dicks, and on our way home we encountered the Palheiro party. Mr Hewson came to us once more to express his grief, and altgo’ his horse was very fidgety he kept with us till the turning to the Carmo. We had a long German reading at the Haywards in the afternoon, and returned by the riverside. Arabella Shore, three Muirs and Julia and Charles came to drink tea with us and had I fear an intensely slow evening. We played and sang to them and Mama read Jack Sheppard, which interested Ara exceedingly, and we staid up till much after hearing more particulars of the row, and were not in bed till half past 12.

Friday 7^th - Called on Mrs Gordon who not being at home we went on to the Haywards to wait till Church time and had a furious battle with Eliza whose opinion, as usual contrary to ours, is that Mr Jones and Papa are in the wrong. We went to Mrs Wynters after Church, hearing that she was ill, and finding that she was not well enough to come with us, we walked from thence to the Praça with Mr Hewson, who came to fetch us and was very nice and confidential telling us how he hated all the Madeira people at first including us.

Saturday 8^th - Mr Hewson came to finish the Forest Sanctuary to which Mama, Bella and I listened very cosily in the drawing room, and then Mama made us roar with laughter at a story in Blackwood. After dinner we went to the Haywards, but having forgotten the Wolkmirwefan we did little good, and were principally talking to Mr Hewson, or of him when he was not present. We left them early and rushed up to the Wallases, where we discussed the Palheiro party etc. and they walked home with us. Messrs Hewson, Montgomery, Bayman, and Robert Temple came to tea, and Shakespeare and we had a delightful evening. They were all so nice, and the play Richard III.

Sunday 9^th - The Catechism was rather more satisfactory said today, and we had a delicious walk to Church with Mr Hewson. He was so very kind and nice and seems really to like everything and everybody in our house. They sat in the Wallases pew and lunched with them, so we saw them no more until after evening church, when they walked with us and the Wallases round the river, and then home with us. He walked a little way with me and paid me such compliments on the maturity of my character, and my too humble opinion if myself, etc. that I was quite ashamed, but as we afterwards fell into our natural places I walked with Marion and gave her good advice as he had been telling us in the morning we ought to do. I finished Dr Chalmers book, which I like much.

Monday 10^th - Miss Selby came to help cut shirts etc. for the Sheffield’s emigration to New Zealand, which undertaking engaged us all till dinner time, after which we called in Miss Provost and Anne Blandy and reached the Haywards late, and then even did nothing as Mr Loyd had found his way into the room and was telling us about the races. Mr Hewson was also there as usual, but he was quiet, and insisted on walking home with us tho’ much too cold and late for him. Mr Cunningham came to tea and the Luxfords, Johnsons and MLO soon after to go with us to a concert at the Club to which, as we expected it would be much crowded we went early and secured good seats. The music, except Mrs Parks singing, was truly Portuguese, much execution and no taste, feeling or expression. Mrs Gordon was the only other English lady who performed, and she besides singing played the Donna del Lago on the harp, a duet on the machetes and guitar gave me more pleasure than anything. I was not very agreeably situated between Lydia Luxford and a Portuguese lady, and hardly any gentleman, who were allowed between the performances to rush up to our side of the room, condescended to speak to me, so I was rather tired at last at 12.

Tuesday 11^th - Mrs Taylor and Miss Selby called and Mr Cunningham called, none of whom I saw. After dinner as Fanny and I were practising in the drawing room and Mama and Bella asleep on two sofas, Mr Hewson walked in to the room. He came to bring some flowers which were much admired in Bella’s hair in the evening at a party at Mrs Gordons, whither she was escorted by Jacinto and enjoyed herself immensely. I thought it would be a bore and went not.

Wednesday 12^th - Rose a little after 6 and rode up to the Mount on Mr Freeman’s horse, accompanied by Papa and the children walking. It was a delicious day and I sat reading Thuggen till 11 when the rest of the party arrived, when I accompanied them to the Gordons Quinta. The people were 7 men from the Haywards, Mr Cunningham, Dr Rupel, The Jonhnsons and Mrs Luxford and Arabella Shore, in all 21. I had the blues intensely, but had the comfort of sympathy from Ara, who was very kind to me, and we walked together from the Gordons to the Church and the Curral, and were just beginning to talk in a most interesting manner of the rise and progress of our friendship at the entrance of the Quinta when Mr Cunningham laughed at us so much that we were obliged to separate, and I to endure Mr Montgomery slowness. We reached the house about ½ past 1 and soon proceeded to dine. Mr Cunningham tried to be very agreeable and we talked a good deal but just about nothing, indeed I do quite despair of ever hearing him talk sense. After dinner we all disappeared about the Quinta and I walked first with Mr Cunningham and then sat under a tree with numerous others who amused themselves and me exceedingly with laughing at Bella, and Frank was really almost witty. As it was very cold Mama sent all the people away early, but she, Papa and I staid some time longer till the things were put away when we walked down to the Lowes, where we drank tea. Mrs Lowe was not very well, but Mr Lowe very nice, alto’ there was no fighting except a little between him and me on the subject of Mr Cunningham, who he says is very clever. Our opinions were also different of a very hard piece of music which he played, but he did not scold me even when I played Fidelis with him, altho’ he made me stop several times and play things over again. At 11 we were quite rested, and able to walk down the rest of the way, so we had a charming conclusion to our day.

Thursday 13^th - The people told the Haywards that they had enjoyed everything except the bean sofas? which shows very bad taste. The Wallases called and stayed an immense time to give us some interesting particulars of the Palheiro party which much enraged and disgusted me, and to hear from us as usual much lecturing in return. Mr Smith had been with Mama all this time, and we heard with much disgust that the result of their conference was that Bella was to ride his horse to Câmara de Lobos on Saturday. After dinner as we knew we should be uninterrupted, we went to the Haywards and on our way met the Hewson and Wallases. Mr H roughed to us and insisted most violently on my riding his little pony, which independently of other considerations I should be sorry to do out of pity for its back, so I said I could not go and he said I must, and he would call on Mama and tell her. As the Haywards where we had intended to be so industrious we could do nothing but relate our troubles to each other and were all much excited, and to think of little cause. We then went on to Mrs Wynter’s who looks decidedly worse but was happy to see us, and we read with Julia and Fanny till past 7, when we went down to the old man’s room to tea, and were joined by the Cunninghams and Sophia and Maria Tripp. After tea there was singing, and Bella and I and Mr Cunningham talked. He was very agreeable but I upbraided him for always talking nonsense, which they afterwards told me was very impertinent, and as I am afraid he thought so too, for he turned very red. I mean to apologise the first opportunity, Fanny and I were then told to play, which we did till it was time to return home. Mrs Wynter as usual very complimentary but poor Mr Wynter so dreadfully out of spirits as well he may be. We rushed home anxious to learn what had been determined and I found to my great relief that Mama had settled that Fanny was to ride Mr Hewson’s pony.

Friday 14 - Miss Dick came to practise. Jacinto called and Mr Hewson staid all the morning and again bothered me to go tomorrow. Bella and I called at the Hayward on our way to Church, and were late in consequence. When we walked on the river side to meet the Wallases, who had promised to join us there and presently Mr Cunningham rushed to us and told to our unutterable disgust that Mr Lowe was sick and would not be able to come, which report was afterwards confirmed by Mama. But we determined to make the best of it, and do as well as we could do without him, and the party which consisted of Dick’s musicians, Haywards, Cunninghams and Wallases seemed tolerable contended with our playing at any rate, we had compliments enough. Frank received my apologies most graciously, and was very kind to me. We were even beginning a long argument on the depravity of our nature which I maintain is not entire, but so many listeners gathered round us that we were ashamed and obliged to leave off. Marion and Bella made a plot, the upshot of which will appear in the 1^st March. We had not supper till near 11 and Miss Dick sat strumming in the Piano for half an hour after but at least they went away except Miss Cunningham and Mr Montgomery who slept. I had been very happy.

Saturday 15^th - Mr Cunningham breakfasted with us and then took away his sister to dress for the picnic. Bella and Fanny also left this for the Haywards at ½ to 10. Mama, Harriet and I went in the afternoon to call on the Sealys, Blandys, Edwardses, Lewises, Eliccots, Temples and Selbys, some at home and some out, but nothing interesting. Mr Bayman and Robert Temple came just as I had dressed at ½ past 5 and we sat some time in de dark discussing the Wallases, Bellas’ good looks etc when she and Fanny returned and were presently followed by Messrs Hew and Mont. Who came to tea and sleep. They had all enjoyed themselves immensely at Cabo Girão and had had no contretemps. Mama read after tea, but though it was still Richard, everyone including her was so sleepy that no one enjoyed it and was almost glad when it was over and time to retire to rest. I finished a pretty collar which I mean for Arabella.

Sunday 16^th - Mr Mont. insisted on walking with us so we had not so nice as walk as usual, and he walked home with the Wallases, but to our great surprise came to walk to Church with is in the afternoon and abused the Wallases all the day. Nevertheless I expected he is very fond of them. We had two delicious sermons, but instead of being able to discuss them quietly after Church we were all so uncomfortably situated that we were intensely bored and have half made up our minds never to walk any more on Sunday. I was with Marion and Mr Hew. and they talked incessant nonsense, abusing and scolding one another and then appealing to me. When the Wallases left us they walked home, and Mr Mont paid me some such judicious compliments on my playing on Friday that I almost began to like him.

Monday 17 - Mama went to the school with a party of strangers and Bella had a long tête à tête with Jacinto. We read quietly for a little after dinner till Julia came and lectured Bella immensely altlho’ she could bring no tangible accusation against her. We had hardly begun to read Wolkmirwipan before Mrs Wynter arrived and we had a nice long reading with her. She gave the children but a short lesson as she was tired, but she looks a little better.

Tuesday 18 - Mr Hewson reading Mrs Hemans all the morning to Bella. After dinner called with her on the Valle people and the Burnetts on our way to the Lowes, where we drank tea with Mama and Papa, who arrived soon after we did. They were neither of them very well, Mr Lowe having had his teeth pulled about in the morning, so the principal amusement of the evening was playing. I played with him Fidelis, Hummels Nocturne and Lulu the last twice over, as the first time I played it abominably, indeed I did not play any so well as usual, but Mrs Lowe told Mama I played very well, which is highly satisfactory. Come away at 10.

Wednesday 19 - Mr Hewson again, but I have not seen him today or yesterday. He tells Bella he likes me immensely because I say sensible things, only I have not “perfect manners”. To Church. Mr Cunningham walked home with us. He is very unhappy about his sister, but promised to waltz with me tomorrow. Clara had a number of children to play with her on her birthday, but after tea they all went into the library to look at pictures, and Mama had the charity to let me remain downstairs with her while she tuned the harp. I read to her some parts of Mr Hewson ‘s favourite book of thoughts and was happy to find that she entirely agreed with me in thinking it humbug excepting two or three pretty bits in “subjection “ and “trinity”. Altogether she was very kind to me, told me I should be a 5d piece to my husband, only that I should never have one etc. I don’t think I have had such a nice tête à tête with her since I have been in Madeira. The Dart came in the morning, and brought such satisfactory letters – one for me from Anne and from M. to Mama, both very affectionate and nice. All our friends in England seem very anxious to get us married, and failing that to make us Milliners – neither of which good wishes are likely I fear to be realised.

Thursday 20 -The Wallases called and caused us to waste all the morning talking rubbish as ever. Mrs Sheppard fell down and hurt herself, so Mama went to see her but it was nothing serious. Papa, Mama and Bella and I went to drink tea at the Parks, and on our way stopped in his house. The Parks had had a dinner party consisting of Blackhalls, Dicks, Frank etc, and the Haywards, Lewises, and a few old men came in the evening. Mrs Park and Julia sung but not very pretty songs and there were three quadrilles, two of which I danced with George Hayward and Mr Park, and sat down the other with Mrs Ross who was telling me about “Jack” etc. Mr Cunningham came to waltz with me according to our engagement, but as his courage failed him we talked instead. We always quarrel so tremendously, but not nicely because he hates arguments which I love, and besides will never defend himself when I abuse him. I was very sorry I called him stupid because I think there is a little justice in the accusation, and he is always lamenting his want of cleverness which is very interesting, but whether he likes or not I can’t help liking him he is so beautiful. Bella and I walked home with Mrs Ross about 12 0’clock.

Friday 21 - To church. Frank came and walked with me a little for the purpose of giving me an immense lecture for telling Marion Wallas that Emma Tripp got tipsy at Cabo Girão. Mr Lowe and the Cunninghams arrived an hour before the Fosters, Parks, musicians and Haywards, so we talked comfortably till Mr Lowe and I opened the Concert with Lulu, which he told me I get on capitally with tonight, and many other kind things which made me happy for the rest of the evening. Frank also said “you played that very well”. Then we had Edmont twice ever – I liked it much better than I ever had before – a long and most delicious trio of Beethoven for piano, violin and viola, also various lovely songs, Leonora and Fidelis. This last I played with Mr Lowe and in a slow part became so confused that he was obliged to play my part for me as well as his own, but he did not scold me and only laughed at me for being so nervous. He also laughed at me before as I meant he should, when I told him he played better than Julia, altogether I think the music was better than ever, and we were very sorry that the Dicks, Carters and Mr Loyd, who was to have slept, were prevented by the rain from coming to hear it. Miss Cuningham staid all night.

Saturday 22 - Miss C. spent the morning to help make Mr Lowe’s paper trays which are now begun in right earnest. M.L.O. made me go out shopping with her and on my return I found Miss Dick practising her “flash solos” which had come out in the Dart. Frank came to fetch his sister who now departed with him, and Mr Hewson who was industriously employed with the paper trays. He staid to dinner as it was raining, and then while they all went on working I read the January No of Widows Married which amused us all immensely, but I fear disgusted him beyond measure. He left us at three to ride with the Wallases, and then Mr Dick came in, but we were presently relieved from his company by the Cunninghams, who came like good angels to take us to walk. Frank soon left us to ride and we were joined on the Praça by the Huddlestons who were very civil to me, and then by Messrs Dick and Prevost who we presently cut and walked home with Miss C. who is very nice. We came home by the Haywards and walked with them as far as we could on their way to the Tripps.

Sunday 23 - It being a wet day neither Mama nor Bella went to Church in the morning having colds, so lost a most beautiful sermon. After evening service we walked with the Wallases and Hewson, I with Marion, who was as usual in despair tho’ without cause I think. I read Martin Luther in the evening.

Monday 24 - As the rain continued I went in a palanquim to Mrs Gordon’s concert, Miss Ross walking by my side which made me much ashamed. Mama rode by the Church where was service (as we Protestants call it St. Mathias, the Roman Catholics tomorrow) and Mrs Wynter who we very much fear is dying. She has been in bed since Friday, and cannot stand or hardly speak or eat, poor lady. It was a magnificent concert, but dreadfully formal, and not half such nice music as we have, nor so comfortably arranged. All the ladies sat on the benches and chairs round the room, the music being in the centre, and the gentleman crowded together in the passage. There were 25 pieces of music of which Mr Lowe played two, the Mount of Olives with Mama etc and the airs from Der Fraifassetz with Mrs Gordon. He looked immensely bored and went away as soon as he could. The other performers on the piano were Duarte, Miss Prevost and Miss Cabral, who all played very well for young ladies, and Miss Dick played two of her “flash solos” of which she talks so much. They would have sounded better had the harp been in better tune and the notes not so wrong. Mrs Park, Mrs Gordon, Mr Bacon etc sang an infinity of songs, some of them very pretty. It was so formal that the ladies in general were afraid to walk across the room, but I nobly despising such ceremony rushed about the room from one place to another as I liked. The Wallases at first were so hedged round with Penfolds that we could not approach each other, but when they went away Marion sent for me and I staid with her the rest of the time. It was not over till 5 o’clock, and as the luncheon had been rather scanty we were all ravenous and brought Mr Picken home to dine with us. The Rosses also came with us as far as we went. Mr Hewson had been there waiting for us ever since 4 to walk on the Praça, but as it was now too late he was obliged to go away. A quiet evening.

Tuesday 25 - We went out shopping and met Mr Hewson whom we upbraided for not coming in the morning to read to us, as he had promised, but I really had been raining all day. The Rosses all came to tea and Messrs Hew and Mont. Mr Hewson sat next to me at tea and was very agreeable. We both laughed immensely. We played and talked and the children sang, and every one was very happy, I think, and went away at 11. We had a hot argument on novel reading as usual before we went to bed. Mr H against us all.

Wednesday 26 - They all made Mr Lowe’s trays and Mr Hew read to them. At 11 Mama and I went to Mr MacWhister, the Yankee dentist, by appointment. He is a most amusing man and very skilful. He stopped our teeth and begged Mama to bring all the rest of her daughters tomorrow because he liked pretty young ladies. We went on to Mrs Frenches through the rain, and found the Cunninghams just sitting down to dinner with Lady Duncan and Miss Foster, so we went into Miss C’s bedroom after hearing that Mrs Wynter was a little better. A palanquim having been sent for Mama, she went home, and they persuaded me to go in and eat pudding, which I had just done when the palan returned for me. Seated at the dinner table I saw to my surprise Messrs Hew and Mont as the rain had prevented their going before, but as it afterwards cleared up they went to ride with the Wallases and Bella to church. I practised. Again quiet.

Thursday 27 - We all went to the dentist, and all but Fanny had some operation performed. We then returned and found at home a message by Mr Cunningham from Mr Wynter that Mama is not to go there any more, so Mrs Wallas is to be the only person allowed to see her.

Friday 28 - Mrs Shore called. I did not see her, but she brought word that Arabella had a very bad cold. Marion Wallas called in rather better spirits perhaps with good cause. We went to Church and I walked home with the Tripps and Miss Luxford and Sophia Sheppard, who I deposited in Mama’s room and then went to dress and read the only packet letter, which is from Mr Lauric, no relation. Again we are disappointed of Mr Lowe. His mother was taken ill in the night with a kind of bilious attack, and so he can’t leave her. Gordons, including Miss Cabral, Messrs Hew and Mont, the Rosses, Mr and Miss Frank and Fanny Brooking were the party, which was rather a large one. The two latter were very agreeable and talked to me immensely. Everybody of course blarneyed me immensely, altho’ I played remarkably ill. Egmont, Fidelio and Preciosa. Miss Dick told me I had the touch of my master (Mr Lowe) and Mrs Park something in the same style. Mr Hewson told me that if Mr Lowe was the sun I was moon, but I put it into mouth and so laughed at him. He also admires my hands very much. Bella told him Mr Pickens elegant comparison of my hands to the linen of beauty in perpetual motion, and he quite agreed, but I don’t feel vain. Miss Dick played several flash solos much better than at Mrs Gordon’s, but so dreadfully long that we were quite tired. Miss Cabral, Mrs Gordon and musicians played Don Swififirts splendidly, and Mrs Park, Julia and the children, so we got on splendidly, and everyone went away quite contented and happy.

numbers. It had poured all the morning, but it cleared up at one, so we 4 sallied forth, we to the Wallases, and they with us, and then home. They hardly expected us as the weather was so unfavourable, so were the more happy to see us. A Captain Innes of the Packect (which sailed in the afternoon with Messrs Smith and Loyd) dined and amused us with a long prosy story of his first love, who was in love with his brother and married someone else still remaining faithful to her first attachment. We were principally in the garden and Marion as usual bemoaning her fate but finding some consolation in telling us. Messrs Hew and Mont called and sat in the drawing room but were not particularly agreeable. After tea Mrs Wallas was very agreeable but infinitely disgusted at the idea of our being able to contemplate the probability of being old maids without horror.

Sunday 1^st - We went to Church twice. Mrs Wynter and Mrs Lowe were both prayed for tho’ both a little better. We walked with the Wallases and Messrs Hew and Mont as usual, but being caught in the rain were obliged to take shelter inside a door, till the rain somewhat abating and umbrellas having been brought for the Wallases they went up the hill and we came on. Mr Mont deserted me, so I walked home alone, but waiting in the patio the other presently appeared, and I also promising faithfully not to divulge the secret of the Confessional it was made known to me also, and is all very right and proper.

Monday 2^nd - Mama went to the school, and Mrs Hewson came to read to Bella, but I believe they talked more than they read. Miss Ross came for an interpreter to the convent, and I was disengaged I accompanied her and Dr and Miss Russel to St Clara where we were most politely received by the Nuns whom I talked so fast that I was quite astonished at myself and they at me, I dare say, never having heard me talk before. They bought plenty of flowers and at length departed. The Russels homewards and Miss Ross and I to Mrs Parks, Lady Duncan’s and Mrs Wynters. The latter is a little better. Miss Ross amused me very much by telling me that just those things I had been abusing to Dr R were his and Mrs Ross’s, but they neither of them seemed angry. Bella and I called on the Shores in the afternoon, Arabella had a headache, but she laughed it away at Bella’s nonsense. Mine was more obstinate and stayed, so I went to bed directly after tea atho’ we had the pleasure of Mackworths company.

Tuesday 3^rd - A Bristol vessel came in with passengers for the island, amongst them a Mr Bernard, a man exactly like Miss Parry’s lodger, with letters from Mr Bowdler and Miss Thomas, who has been ill but is better. Mrs Langford and Marion called, the latter curious but remaining unsatisfied, also the Luxford and Julia to read German, but this she gave up in despair. Bella and I went out shopping and on our return found Mrs Shore who we tried to persuade to let Arabella go to the Consul’s ball – I know not whether successfully.

Ash Wednesday - I wrote till time to go to Church where we heard that Mrs Lowe is the same but Mrs Wynter better. Then went with Marion and Mr Hewson to the bonnet woman’s, thence alone to the Haywards to fetch Mama home. I remained in the library all day writing letters to M.A.L. and Annie Evans, Bella in the drawing room with Mr Hewson who called. In the evening I finished Captain Harris’ Wild Sports of Southern Africa, which is very well written.

Thursday 4th - I wrote a bit of a letter to Augusta Nicholl and the Dart sailed at 3 o’clock, Mrs Temple called and Miss Ross, to ask us to act charades (charaded) tonight. So at ½ past 6 M.L.O, Bella and I sailed forth in spite of the rain and reached the Rosses tolerably dry, being presently joined by the Lewises, Miss Hudleston, Miss Prevost, Alexander Hally and a few other unimportant personages. The Charades which were acted in a most charming theatre, a little room between the drawing room and dining room with folding doors, were Marriage, Mr Hamilton and Miss Hudleston, very tolerable as they both act decently, and Courtship, Bella and Mr Ross made a pretty tableau. The others, Funchal, Sigh Bill (Sybill and Ian Sigh) were pitiful. Between the acts we went to eat a bride cake which was distributed while lights were burning blue, and characters drawn for, and at supper we were also compelled to devour immensely in order to come to the ring, which fell to Miss Prevost, who passed little bits of cake through it for each person, and then were some songs, but it was altogether a pitiful failure. Everyone seemed asleep and stupid. My only comfort all the evening, for I spoke to no one, was “Feruat” which I found on the table and to my great surprise and joy found I could understand, not Miss Ross much disgusted me by her bad taste and bad manners in taking it out of my hand and telling me to be lively!

Friday 5^th - In consequence of the bad weather the Dart had not been able to get away, and all the passengers had slept ashore. Mr Hewson came and staid all the morning. Went to Church and called on the Haywards. No music in consequence of Mrs Lowe’s illness, alto’ she is better.

Saturday 6^th - I read a little of Carlyle to Bella but we could not exactly understand it, and the Mama called us down and I read Love- Sheridan Knowles, which Mr Jones had sent, but it growing dark went to dance, and Mr Hewson coming in in the middle joined us and then danced the Mazurks. The other Shakesperians had been asked, but not being able to come Mama finished Love, which is rather good, and then read some things in Bella’s scrap book. He likes “Horas?. Poor man!, he is very sick, and was very tired as he had been lunching with the Wallases, but he could not resist the temptation of coming here – to sleep on the feather bed.

Sunday 7^th - Papa woke sick with a headache, so could not leave his room. Mr H had also a toothache, and did not say his catechism, and was not very agreeable going to Church except a funny story he told us of his early follies. Mr Cunningham and Henry Brooking walked from Church in the morning, and we with the Wallases, and in the evening.

Monday 8^th - Mrs Stoddart called early and MLO spent the morning, and Mrs Renton called. Mr, Mrs and Miss Tripp, Messrs Lowe, Jones and Bernard and Captain Denning dined at 3. Mr Bernard took me in, but I had not the talent of drawing him out, and found him rather slow. The gents went away early, and we were relieved almost at the sight of Dr Lippold who invited himself to tea, and conversed with me a little on “Ferust” which he says he can’t understand. They departed about 10, having helped us to make and spoil a good many paper trays for Mr Lowe.

Tuesday 10^th - I helped to finish my frook which is prettier than I expected, being of not over silk. Mama went up to see Mrs Lowe who is still in bed, tho’ better, and dined with Mr Lowe and then called on the Langfords. Mr Hewson brought Bella some flowers for her hair, but alas! He has such a headache from having walked into town from the Palheiro that he fears he shall not be able to go to the ball. What is to become of all the young ladies? Jane Wallas also came to look at us as she is not going tonight, and gave us a melancholy account of the state of Marion’s nerves or heart I suppose she would say, and the scoldings she gets thereupon from her Mother and Catherine. Lydia Luxford came at ½ past 8 before anyone was dressed, but Mama speedily got ready and accompanied her to the Consul’s, sending back the carriage for us, as I was in a palanquim, the rain, which was pouring, washed my face all the way. I was taken upstairs by Harry Young and Bella by someone else, by whom we were deposited in a room full of ladies, and the dancing almost immediately began. Bella being engaged for 4 quadrilles, was immediately led away but I unhappy sat looking on with Mama and Mr Picken. When this was over I was walked about by Mr Temple and from him passed on to George Hayward, who asked me to dance, and as usual minded his steps more than his partner. Mr Hewson then came to me, and asking me to walk we went into another room, and sat down cosily. He had not been able to resist the temptation of the ball and had come, also his cousin, in our sedan chair. While there seated, up came a villainous and youthful Portuguese and asked me to dance which I promised to do, but Mr Hewson remonstrated with me and assuring me I was engaged to him (which I thought very pretty behaviour) I told the young gentleman he must excuse me, and had a very nice dance with one I liked considerably better. In spite of his sickness he was very nice and entertained me all the time with praises of Bella, who he said he had never seen looking so well, and that it was a happiness to look at her etc. I also danced with Mr Bayman and a Midshipman, and being deserted by Mr Montgomery had to sit down a second time, but we are to dance together the last time we meet. There were about 400 people, very good music, and everything very well arranged, so I suppose it was a very delightful ball, but I was bored for no one would speak to me or like me, and I found myself at the early age of 17 a confirmed wallflower, which I cannot but think mortifying, especially as my natural disposition is so much inclined to be envious, so that I cannot help at the time feeling distressed that everyone, pretty or ugly, wise or foolish, should be so much more liked than I, and as there is nothing I believe actually repulsive in my appearance there must be something in my manner very disagreeable, but never mind, it must teach me patience, and to find happiness elsewhere than in the opinion of others. We came away one after another between 3 and 4. Everyone admired our dresses exceedingly, and they were really almost the prettiest in the room.

Wednesday 11 - Pouring rain the whole day. Nevertheless Dr Lippold called while Mama was reading the Tower of London to us while we all worked in the drawing room. After dinner Bella, Lydia and I laid on our bed and slept or read, and at 5 the rain having somewhat abated, Lydia went home. After tea just as Bella was going to bed, Mr Ross came and begged her so vehemently to go and help them to arrange some new charade that she went with him and did not return till after 10.

Thursday 12 - Mr Hewson called early and staid till dinnertime. I just went away to speak to him and am happy to hear that he is all the better for his dissipation. We just rushed to the Haywards, but could gain little information on the subject which he had been discussing with Bella.

great importance, no less that the regulations of her conduct at balls in future. He was very nice. He is a little darling and no mistake. He walked to Church with us from the Haywards. The Packet came in and brought Bella letters by Mr Western from Mr Deane with autographs of Byron, Rogers and the Duke, from Mrs Lewell with a charming one of Wilberforce and from Aunt Page. These all we read while the music was going on, assembled to hear which were Mr Macwhisten, Dr Lippold, the Tripps, the Hewsons, Frank, the Dicks and Haywards, Rosses and Taylors. We had very nice music until 10 when Mr Lowe went away and then we had flash solos and other rubbish till 11 and supper after, while Miss Dick continued to play and the Rosses and Mr Hewson to admire, so that we were not in bed till 12. no one spoke to me and I had been rather slow.

Saturday 14 - Mama brought them up into the library to see a dissected map which they are to mend. This being settled, Mr Hewson went down to Bella and Malcom staid up with me looking very quietly at pictures till Charley’s lessons were over, and then reading to me out of an old book about the Inquisition, which was very interesting so we were all very cosy. I never liked him so well. He is by no means a fool, and made several sensible remarks. We went down about 1, and they soon took their departure, after expressing much gratitude for their delightful evening, altho’ it was almost superfluous in this house. After dinner Mama read the Queen’s Marriage to us, and Messrs Jones and Picken called and Miss Forster P.P.C. so we were not free till 6 when tho’ it was nearly dark we rushed up to the Wallasses and found them dressed for a dinner party, but they staid with us till repeated messaged having been sent for them, they were obliged to go down leaving us to walk home in the moonlight. Mr Ross came for us about 7, and we proceeded to his house to rehearse charades for Thursday. No one was there but ourselves, but it was much to arrange, we could not get away till near 12.

Sunday 15 - Two very good sermons, but for one day rather too fierce. Mr Hewson walked home with us in the morning, and the evening only a little way as he has a very bad cold and an open blister. Marion declares herself to be now quite cool and composed, and her mind quite made up that she has nor no hope.

Monday 16 - Mr Hewson sent word he was improved both in health and prudence, which he is reason we do not see him today I suppose. Mrs Luxford, Mrs Sheppard and Arabella Shore dined here, and Mr Montgomery and the Tripps called just as we had finished. Arabella and we sat in the little drawing room and she scolded us immensely for the impropriety of our behaviour or rather Bella’s. She maintains that she came it a great deal too strong with a young gentleman when she allows him to come and read poetry to her all day, as she has no faith in platonic friendship, and seems to think there cannot be intimacy without something else. She but convinced us not, and I believe thinks us lost and irreclaimable. After this we sat up in our room but discussed the Church, Byron etc. till she went home.

Tuesday 17 - I begun the List of Ferdinand and Isabella on Arabella’s recommendation, but I much fear I shall not have time to read it all. Mr Houghton called after dinner, and Julia came to read German but went away in despair. Soon after 6 Lydia Luxford came to go with us to the Rosses, where a large party soon assembled – Huddlestons, Parks, Oliveiras, Lewises, Gordons etc. after tea the acting began, and as we found we could not see well seated on chairs, we betook ourselves to the ground and there squatted comfortably, I with Arabella, till the performance was over. The Charades were 7 in number, and all exceedingly performed, i.e, Fag inn, Try angle, Granny dear, Bump in, Fall staff, Shy look and Band ditty, which ended with a magnificent tableau. The lady performers were Bella and Mrs Park, with occasional assistance from Ellen Lewis, the gentlemen those of the house and Dr Ruppel, who was capital in the Granny and the cousin Scotchman. It was all over, being exceedingly quick, at 11, including supper and singing, and we were charmed. Mr Hamilton in Sam Weller in the trial scone is inimitable, and the others all surpassed themselves.

Wednesday 18 - Rain again, but I was very happy tho’ sick, lying down and reading Ferdinand and Isabella.

Thursday 19 - The first fine day of this week. No Visitors. Marion sent word to beg we would go and lunch there as she had a cold and could not come to see us, so we went and spent the day there and were obliged to remain all the time in the house sitting round the fire as it was raining hard and very cold. We had even some idea of being obliged to sleep there which would have been sufficiently amusing, but about 5 it cleared up a little, and we were able to call on the Marshalls who were all very sick. We then went on to the Haywards where we called to fetch Charles to walk with us as it was quite dark and we alone. They were at dinner when we arrived, so we walked straight into the drawing room, where we saw Eliza and Mr Hewson, who were much surprised to see us at such an hour tho’ much delighted. They are both very sick and croak in company, being both confined to the house with bad colds. The gents after some time coming up from dinner we went on our way with Charles, and reached the Angustias, where we dismissed our attendant, in rather a muddy condition. Having cleaned ourselves we joined the company, which consisted of Parks, Sheppards, Papa, Mr Cunningham and Dr Ruppel. After tea as Mrs Park was only able to sing one song we all went into the balcony, where I again was principally with Louisa, as Sophia Sheppard most unceremoniously interrupted an agreeable word I was having with Frank. It was a fine moonlight night, and we had a nice walk home.

Firday 20 - Mrs Johnson called early. We went to Church and called on the Haywards where we again found Mr Hewson sitting with Eliza. Our party this evening consisted of Tripps, Sheppards, Luxfords, Rosses, Cunninghams, Thomas, Haywards, Parks and Mr Lowe and musicians. We had a delicious music altho’ Mrs Park was not able to sing. Mr Lowe played a long thing of Beethoven not very pretty, and a duet of Hummel with Miranda on the flute very pretty. Of all the music I like Feruft and a trio of Beethoven’s the best. Frank was very agreeable to me (after Bella was gone to bed sick) and complained bitterly of the reports about himself and Shophia Tripp. He is so afraid the Papa and Mama should really think “he is making up to the girl” and means to cut them altogether. Arabella enjoyed herself, and actually does not hate music.

Saturday 21 – The Haywards came, and we studied the Globes till after dinner, when we set to work to trim bonnets and read German, but the Jordan Hill Smiths called, and we went down to them. Miss Smith seems an exceedingly nice girl, and was charmed at the idea of coming the Friday after next to hear Mr Lowe play. I forgot to mention that Miss Cunnigham and Mr Montgomery who slept here returned home immediately after breakfast to finish their letter and allow us to finish ours, as the Dart sailed at 12 o’clock. I only finished a letter of Mama’s to Kitty.

Sunday 22 - One of the prettiest sermons I ever heard Mr Lowe preach about the 7 spirits more wicked than himself, which I never understood before. Mr Hewson called after morning church and walked with us in the afternoon. He still seems very sick. The Wallases were not at Church.

Monday 23 - I went out shopping with MLO, Bella to breakfast with the Carters. Mr Macinestin called, and I hear was very agreeable, but I saw him not, and at 5 went with Bella to call on the Ellises, who were more dirty and untidy than I could have conceived it possible for any young ladies to be. On the river side we met the Haywards who walked a little with us on our way to the Marshalls where we saw the poor lady in great distress as her eldest baby is dying. We then went to the Wallases, and staid there till 7, when it being quite dark we rushed home.

Tuesday 24^th - Mr Hewson called and staid till 5, as he was so agreeable Mama would not let him go away till after dinner, and then he was wanted to quiet the creaking of Fanny’s frame and other pieces of furniture with brown soap, which operations while he was performing Mr Bernard walked in, and apparently disgusted at something almost immediately walked out again. Mama begun to read Henry 8, but was sleepy. I read “Probus” aloud in the evening.

Wednesday 25^th - Lady Day. We all went to Church except Bella, who staid at home to receive Dr Renton who came to look at her swelled face. We also went to call on the Gordons, Marshalls and Wallases. In the afternoon Julia came to read German, so we did not see the Cunninghams, Mr Jones or Mr Johnson. I went with Miss Ross and MLO to see the magic lanterns at Mrs Gordons which when we had been sufficiently bored with we had the comfort of going into a light room and drinking tea –not much however of this last. There were about 50 people present, and I was very happy. To my great astonishment Robert Temple asked me to dance the first quadrille, and when I asked him the reason he had not conferred this honour upon me three years before he could not tell, but was very amusing. The other quadrille I danced with Mr Hamilton, who talked an infinity of rather amusing nonsense. He says he feel violently in love with Jane Penfold at 1^st sight, and is now much enamoured of Jane Wallas, to whom however he has never been introduced. Dr Ruppel was also agreeable and asked me twice to dance, but to our great astonishment, Mrs Park having sung two songs, everyone rose and departed about 10. I walked home with Mr Hamilton and Dr Ruppel observed that our engagement was very convenient as there was a church close by, so I suppose I am to dance with him at the next ball.

Thursday 26^th - Bella confined to her room. Mr Hewson called and told his troubles to Mama for an hour and ½. Mr Lowe also walked into the room to my great horror whilst I was practising scales very vigorously and said “Well done Mary”. He had just been marrying Fanny Enock and Mr Wren, but as usual could tell us nothing interesting except that he had not saluted the bride, which we all, Mr Hewson included, thought very wrong. The bride and bridegroom are to spend their honeymoon as well as many other moons on board a ship as they this very day sail to England on the way to New Zealand. Mama read Harry Lorrequer to us in the afternoon, and was much surprised not to find it so clever or moral as Nicholas Nickleby. Clever it is tho’ and amusing.

Friday 27^th - Bella better and able to appear in the drawing room to Mr Hewson, the Carters, Sheppards, Haywards, Jane Wallas, Frank, Messrs Ross, Hamilton and Macauly and Miss Dick. Messrs Montgomery and Bernard had been prevented coming by the weather, also 9 others, so our party was not so large as we had anticipated. I began the evening with an overpowering headache, but the terror of playing Fidelio and the scolding I got from Mr Lowe for my nervousness quite drove it away an yet I did not enjoy the music particularly, and everyone talked so immensely that I was quite enraged and scolded furiously. Miss Dick staid an immense time after everyone else, and Mr Hewson declares she was tipsy. She was calling him “my dear” and all kind of things.

Saturday 28 - The snow almost down to the Mount, and a bright morning, so Mama and three children rushed up and borrowed horses and spent the morning in it. They got wet three times, but enjoyed themselves immensely. So did we. We walked in the garden, waltzed and talked nonsense till three o’clock when Mr Hewson remembered he had an engagement to ride with the Wallases, and was obliged , I do believe unwillingly, to tear himself away from our sweet society. He asked and easily obtained permission to call me Mary, which he has never yet done. Papa in bed all day with rheumatism. Permission to come and read on Monday. My head ached abominably so I went early to bed.

Sunday 29^th - Papa better but still in bed. Two not very nice sermons. Jane not well, so neither of the Wallases came to Church in the afternoon, but we had a charming walk between the showers. Mr Montgomery forgot to be affected and innocently owned that he liked green fields and shady lanes much better than great brown mountains. I could not altogether agree with him.

Monday 30^th - Mr Hewson came to read, but Papa and Mrs Luxford caused so many interruptions that he made but little progress, and went away at last in despair. Julia came to read German but in about an hour I left them to go out with Mama and Harriet, and they sent for Padre Sá to practice the Creation with them. We called on the Jordan Hill Smiths to ask Joanna to come and spend a few days with us that she might be at home on Friday evening, as they do not like her to go our so soon after her sister’s death, but the Papa and Mama being sick or cross, declined the invitation. On our way down the river side we met Marion and Messrs Cunningham, Montgomery and Hewson riding. The latter sympathised with me exceedingly on my headache, which was exceedingly bad. So did also Mr Picken, who had before called us into his house to look at Mr Blackall’s “Stranger” for 41, in which Mr Hewson and Marion figure as Mr and Mrs Notshew. We then went on to the Selbys who were at dinner. Mama had intended to go and enquire after Mrs Marshalls, whose poor little baby is just dead, but as she forgot it I would not remind her because she has been scolding us so immensely for the “vulgarity” of our intercourse with the Wallases, and as Mr Marshall’s is so near the Torrientia I was afraid she would attribute my wish to go there to some hidden and improper motive, which she is very fond of doing. I put some ether to my head as soon as I came home, on Mr Hewson’s recommendation, and so was able to sit up a little longer and read Harry Lorriquer, which is clever and no mistake.

Tuesday 31^st - Mr Hewson came and nearly finished English Bards and Scotch Reviewers, and Miss Tripp and Mr Simpson called, but I saw none. immediately after dinner Bella with Clara walked up to the Valle to meet Mr Hewson , who she had agreed to introduce to the Sheppards, as Miss Hewitt is a mutual friend of theirs. Bella then went to call in the Luxfords and Mr Hewson walked down with her. If this does not set the Vallians reporting I shall be surprised. The Wallases were there when they arrived, so they all rode off together, tho’ considerably past 5. Harriet and I meanwhile had been enjoying ourselves immensely at the Mount. Mr Freeman having lent me the horse, I rode up and spent two delicious quiet hours reading Harry Lorrequer and wandering about the Quinta, which looks lovely in spite of the absence of flowers and leaves.

Wednesday 1^st - Mr Hewson finished English Bards and read some of Mrs Hermans till 2 o’clock, when Sophia Sheppard arrived, and we all went to dinner, after which Mr Hewson walked to Church with us, and them went to ride with the Wallases. Leaving Bella at home with a bad cold etc, Mama, Fanny and I then went to call on the Marshalls, after which Mama went home and we walked up and down the road till nearly 6. They were ? to see us, and Jane took Fanny into her room and they were quite delighted with each other. Their common affection for Mr Hewson makes a bond of union between them. Perhaps they might have a better. They entrusted us to stay to tea, but I was afraid Mama would be angry so did not. Read Fardoroughs.

Thursday 2^nd - Bella in bed worse. After dinner I finished Fardoroughs, which is beautiful written and very interesting. Katharine Selby paid Bella a visit. About 7, we, Papa, Mama, Harry and I went thro’ pouring rain to drink tea with the Shores, where we met no one but Sir William Cooke, but I had a nice evening, being closeted with Arabella, who was very amiable and gave me great lectures in the iniquity of our proceedings, but I defended myself principally by saying that as Mama encouraged us, or rather, Mr Hewson we could not help it.

Friday 3^rd - We had no music as Mr Lowe was ill with a cold, although he was able to go to Church and pay Mama a visit afterwards. The Wallases came for Bella to trim a bonnet.

Saturday 4^th - The children went to the TE DEUM and review. Mr and Mrs Langford, the Haywards and Mr Hewson came and went up into the library to visit Bella, who is down so far for the 1^st time. I went in the afternoon to walk with Mary and call on Miss Ross, who sent Bella an autograph of Chalmers.

Sunday 5^th - We received the sacrament and on our return home found Mr Hewson with Bella. He staid to dinner, and walked to Church with me – rather slow – declaring I did not like him at one time tho’ perhaps I do now. He is quite mistaken, for I used to like him and am getting tired. He walked home with me and wakened Bella.

Monday 6^th - I was engaged to ride with Arabella , but the weather was so unsettled the she sent the horse and her excuses. Marion was also afraid to come, so I went up to the Mount about 1 with Clara, and was exceedingly happy tho’ alone. I read the Monk of Cimiez, which is very wicked, and tho’ Clara had a fire I preferred walking all the time. It was quite dark when we came down, but as I had a fancy to speak to Marion I came down the Palmeira read, but I bitterly repented before I was half way down, the road being full of holes which we could hardly see, and once the pony tumbled quite down. However we got down in safety, and I shouted for Marion who was very sorry she had not been up. Miss Dick, Miss Tripp and Mr Hewson had called.

Tuesday 7^th - Miss Dick to practise. Mr Hewson called and I left him pretending to read while I went by invitation to spend the day at the Shores. There however I found that Arabella having something to do of great importance had gone to our house to put me off, and we missed one another on the road. I returned of course. On my way I called on Miss Forrest- the last visit. Mrs Park, Julia and Padre Sá came to practise the Creation.

Wednesday 8^th - Miss Dick to practise. Bella and I went to Church and to the Haywards and Carters. Papa, Mama, Harry and I went to a 2^nd concert at the Club- much as last time, but a better selection. I walked with Papa between the Acts and we were not in bed much before 1.

Thursday 9^th - Mr Hewson came but was interrupted in his reading by Mr Hamilton and Captain Leacock.P.P.C. being very tired I lay down and read Mrs Hall’s Lights & Shadows of Irish Life till time to go to the Tripps, whither Papa, Fanny and Harriet accompanied me. The Luxfords and Sheppards completed the party, and they amused themselves all the evening abusing Mr Lowe to see how I would look. We also played and I sung a song. In bed after 12.

Friday 10^th - Bella and Fanny went through the rain to a concert at Mrs Gordons where they were entertained much, as Mama and I were on a similar occasion. They went home to dine with the Haywards at ½ past 2. Mr Lowe came here to do ditto, and then we walked to Church together. He was very kind and nice, and gave me a lecture on Don Juan and Ferust, the latter much the words alas! We had some fears that our performers might be tired, and not able perhaps to come to us this evening in consequence of Mrs Gordon’s stupidity or ill-naturedly having here on the same day, but we need not have been afraid. They all came and we never have had the music so good or the listeners so numerous. The latter were Wallases, Shores, Messrs. Hew. And Mont., Parks, Carters, Miss Provost, Miss Licios, Jacinto, Mary, Mr Cunningham, Dicks, Sheppards, Jane Muir etc. I played Lulu and Mr Lowe a sonata before tea, and afterwards the trio Egmont, and Leonora and Oberon instrumental, two parts of the Creation, and a scene from DER Frutchutz (MRs Park) weal. Again not in bed till 1. My poor head will suffer.

Saturday 11^th - They went early to write letters, which I did till I could hold up my head no longer, when I went into the drawing room and read Mrs Hall and received visits from Mr Jones and Charles Blandy, P.P.C, Mary and her brother and also going to Lisbon.

Sunday 12^th - All the Valle people came to go to the procession of Palma at the Cathedral, and were accompanied by all of us except Mama who is too rheumatic to go out today, and me, who am afraid of my head, so only go to my own Church. Mr Bayman walked with us after morning and Mr Hewson after evening service. He came in and staid some time.

Monday 12^th - I abandoned Charley to write two long letters to Miss Thomas and Anne Evans and a shorter one to Joseph. The Vernon sails today. Mr Lowe was closeted all day in the library with Papa and Mama and the drawing room visitors were in the morning Mr Picken who dined, and Mr Jones, and in the afternoon Miss Smith, P.P.L. , and to bring me some wax flowers. Dr Oliveira who most amiably offered us the use of his horses during his absence, Mr Wood, also P.P.C., also the Shores, Mrs Ross and Marion. About 50 people are about sailing from Madeira, among them the Sheppards and Jane Muir.

Tuesday 14^th - Mama and Bella went to Church and immediately afterwards Mr Wynter called here with Mr Lowe, the first he has made since his wife illness. I wrote up this. Mama went to see Mrs Wynter for the first time since her illness, and Mr Cunningham drank tea here to talk about the North, as he is going there next week with Messrs John Smith and John Lewis – an intellectual trio. The Oliveira sailed for Lisbon, and Bella went on board to see the last of her weeping friends.

Wednesday 15^th - We went to Church and Mr Hewson walked home with me, and Bella not being well he staid to dinner and to read to her, altho’ Mama was gone to spend the day at the Lowes. I also went out in the evening on Earl Grey, which Dr Oliveira allows us to ride while he is away. The Cunnighams who had asked me to ride with them sent word by Frank that it was too rainy, and as he had not the politeness to offer to go with me, I went up to the Torrentia to fetch Marion, and we had a delightful ride round by St Antonio, tho’ talking more nonsense than I ever mean to talk again.

Thursday 16^th - I went on from Church with the Shores to spend the day at the Angustias, but till some time after dinner Arabella was so much engaged with giving and taking lessons that I was left alone or with Louisa, but amused myself reading her translation of Pudins etc. till she came. Then after we had talked on various subjects she read me two imitations of Greek dramas written by herself and Louisa (the latter she stole) , they are both so beautifully written, and also the beginning of a long unfinished poem entitled “The Isles of the West”, which I think deserves to be printed a great deal more than much that is, but so far from printing or publishing her poetry she has shown it to no one but her sister and me, which I look upon as a great honour done to me. So I was very happy till teatime, when we were sorry to be disturbed from the couch on which we were reposing ourselves. At tea Mackworth and Eustace made themselves so agreeable that I could not hear a word Mr Shore said, so I presently went to the balcony with Arabella, and we walked there till called to prayers, after which Papa came for me, and we walked home in the moonlight.

Good Friday 17^th (1840)- Mr Lowe preached the shortest sermon I ever heard. Messrs Hew. and Mont. Came to walk with us to evening Church, and then back again through the Cathedral. Dr Ruppel came home with us, and he being engaged with Bella and her autographs and Mr Hewson with Mama, I proceeded upstairs to take off my bonnet, but just as I reached the aviary I heard some one calling out Oh Mary, Mary, so I looked round rather surprised and beheld Mr Hewson who said he must have an explanation of something I said to him the other day, i.e., that he is not sincere. I said I was always happy to fight, so we stood there on the landing place and had a most charming battle. He owned that it would be a most amusing scene and quite unique if Marion and Bella were to come and tell all that he had said to each, indeed he almost tumbled downstairs with laughing at the idea, but still he maintains that he has said nothing contradictory or insincere to either, and appealed to my good sense to acknowledge that he could not have encouraged our intimacy with Marion if he wished we should not tell one another everything he said. Nevertheless I know he has told both that he had rather be reading or riding with them than doing anything else – that he had been more open with them than anyone else, and so on, which I told him, and he could not defend himself quite well in spite of his talent for making black white, and as it was hi dinner time we were obliged to break off the discussion before it was half over, but we hope to renew it on some future occasion. I had begun to get quite tired of this little man, but there is nothing like a little quarrelling for making people friends.

Saturday 18^th - the Tripps and Mr Hewson came to go with us to the Hallelujah, the latter much regretting that my odious headache would prevent our having any more fighting today. We staid in the Cathedral till nearly 12 waiting for the Hallelujah which after all was hardly worth waiting for. Then we came home, and I being very sick lay on my bed all the rest of the day occasionally reading a little of Mrs Sherwood. Mr Hewson was with Bella in the drawing room putting eau-de-cologne on one another’s foreheads, and the Haywards and Mr Lowe with Mama in the library. Mama and Bella went to see Mrs Wynter by invitation, and Bella then proceeded to the Haywards where with Harriet she spent the rest of the evening playing at the interesting game of Consequences and looking at the moon.

Sunday 19^th - More people than I almost ever saw staid today – 106. We went to the Haywards after evening service to enquire about their party tomorrow, so out the Wallases and walked afterwards with Mr Hewson and the Haywards.

Monday 20^th - Mr Hewson came about 12 to say I was to go to the Haywards to ride with Eliza and Mr Simpson, so I obeyed, mounted the pony and we proceeded to the Gorgulho, all the rest of the Haywards and the three eldest Miss Phelpses with Tom Edwards and Harry Young being to go by water. We arrived there first, but they were sooner settled, as we had to scramble down some precipitious rocks, where Mr Montgomery and I nearly tumbled over into the sea. It being ½ past 1 we then proceeded to dine, the food being spread in a large cave where they all sat, but I with much prudence took possession of a smaller one close by, which I thought would just hold two persons. They all now having satisfied their hunger proceeded some to sail in the waves and others to fish, so that I presently found myself quietly seated alone with Mr Hewson just as I had wished. All the others being far away out of sight. So there we continued and ended the discussion, having both, with more moderation than is usually me with, yielded a little. He owned that he knew he had got into the habit of saying more than he meant, paying absurd compliments and such like, altho’ he assured me (and I can’t helps believing him) that he had never said a word that he did not mean to Bella, but that he was trying earnestly to break himself of it, and he thought he had almost quite succeeded. I said I thought he was naturally open and straightforward, but agreed with him that the sooner he got rid of his acquire bad habits, the better. This being settled after much interesting debate, we talked of Bella, who he says he likes extremely, of the Haywards, Wallases etc. I think he has a great respect for me, but I don’t think he likes me much. At about 5 they returned, and we all climbed up again except those who preferred returning by water. I walked with the two Haywards, who to my great horror and dismay began scolding me so dreadfully, and I fear with so much reason, that I was quite distressed- not for sitting alone with a young gentleman in a cave, which was quite harmless, but for having such secrets to talk with him that when Julia came in once I sent her away, but as I was very penitent they forgave me, and we walked on in peace, having only to wait occasionally for Mr Hewson and Bella, who lagged behind terribly. As we passed the Angustias we thought it advisable to go in and wish them joy on the arrival of their son Richard, who arrived today in the Packet, which I forgot to mention brought us very good news. They were very happy to see us, and we were introduced to Richard, who is rather an extraordinary looking youth of 18, with the face of a man and the figure of a child. On reaching home we found that our fatigues were not yet ended, for a Mr Durham, a friend of the houses, with a son and daughter and a Mrs Villineuve and two children – passengers to the Brazils in the Packet – came to drink tea with us, and we had to amuse them with music and talking, and I was glad of an opportunity of practising my French with the Lady, who was very well inclined to talk. Miss Durham also sung, much to the gratification I believe of her father and brother, but it was rather painful to our more delicate ears. They seemed very happy and grateful, but we were not sorry when they left us to repose.

Monday 21^st - After a great deal of debating, it was decided where to go today, and about 11 they all set off in a boat to Praya Bay, Mama, Ellen Hayward, Charley and I proceeding thither on horseback. The Haywards with Mr Hewson passed by on their way to Camacha about 10. We spent a very happy and tranquil day among the rocks, reading, bathing, sleeping and eating. One adventure only disturbed our peacefulness. As Fanny with the other children was bathing, she was carried out to sea and disappeared under the water, but before Papa who was not far off could pull off his coat an jump in after her she was brought back by a wave and safe again. We set off a ½ before 6 to walk home again, leaving the babies to wait for a hammock with Anna an Mama and Papa with the pony. We walked very fast, and ran down the hills, but did not reach home for two hours, so that we were considerably tired and rejoiced when the others arrived to have tea and go to bed. I beguiled the way coming along by telling the children the story of Munsher Rip.

Wednesday 22 - Mr Hewson called, but as the children were not supposed to be very fond of Mrs Heman’s poetry Mama read Columbus instead, tho’ interrupted by Mr and Miss Ross and other visitors. They all went to Church, and Bella afterwards shopping with the Tripps. Arabella and Richard Shore paid me a visit after Church and where very agreeable. The youth I believe is very clever and lively, tho’ rather conceited. Bella and Harriet drank tea with the Rosses, and had a pleasant evening. My head ached so much that I could not go, but did not much regret it.

Thursday 23 - Mr Hewson paid Bella a visit in the little drawing room, while Miss Dick was playing in the large, and we in the library, and persuaded her to ride with him, so about 3 o’clock he and Mr Montgomery came and rode with her and Harriet up to the Mount. Harriet picked up the Tripps on the way, and went home to tea with them.

Friday 24^th - Mr Hewson and Mr Bernard rode over to Camacha with Bella and Clara to fetch the Haywards, we to console ourselves sent for Edward Line to play duets with us on the flute, and I then read a German legend of Rubazerfl, and went to Church with the children. Mr Lowe being rather poorly, played only a duet with Mama, a song with Mrs Park and Leonora, and went home, so that we had more than usual a second rate, but this did not much signify as our party was not composed of very great critics, i.e., Messrs Bayman, Charles Murdoch, Peter Cossart, Dr Lippold, Hewson, Montgomery and Bernard, and the Wardrops, Carters etc. Fanny played a duet with Edward, which received unbounded applause, and I played Preciosa, after having practised it before while Miss Dick was playing a flash solo. Mrs Park also sung a good deal, so we got on pretty well. The Haywards have not yet returned from Camacha, although Bella, Fanny with Messrs Hewson and Bernard, rode over to fetch them.

Saturday 25^th - St Mark. We read a little of Columbus, and then went to Church, leaving Bella with Messrs Hew. And Mont. who went home to lunch and then returned to ride with Fanny to the Palheiro to meet the Haywards, who are spending the day there.

Sunday 26^th - To Church twice. Walked after Church as usual, except that Jane not being well and Harriet with us, she and Mr Montgomery walked with us all the way, which interruption to our liberty seemed much to amuse Mr Hewson, who declared he had not sent his cousin. Read Blunt on Elisha.

Monday 27^th - Mama very poorly, and in bed all day. In the afternoon we all went in her room and read Columbus. Mr Hewson and Bella read Marmion in the morning. Arabella and her brother called in the afternoon.

Tuesday 28^th - Mama still in bed. Mr Hewson and Bella sat in the library all the morning, while I practising in the dinning room received all the visitors, i.e., Araujos, Dr Lippold and Mrs Ritchie in the drawing room. Miss Dick came to dine and take patterns. I was engaged to ride with Miss Cunningham at ½ past 3, but she not appearing, I set off with Harriet at ½ past 4 and met her with Marion, who was on her way to pay visits in the Carreira, and then home. We went up to call on Mrs Lowe, and being let in we went to the drawing room, and were entertained by Mr Lowe, she being too poorly. Just as we were departing arrived Arabella and Richard. The distress of the latter at finding herself paying Mr Lowe a visit was amusing. We left her there, and went on towards the Westward beyond Ribeiro, and home by the hoo fields. She is rather slow, but we talked all the time. Bella returned soon after me, having been with Fanny to see Mrs Wynter, and escorted home by Mr Hewson. Jacinto drank tea.

Wednesday 29^th - Mama a little better, but still in bed. In consequence of pouring rain we had no visitors and the children did not go to school. As it cleared up a little, Mr Hewson called after dinner, and we went to Church, and thence still accompanied by him to the Maravilhas, where he waited in the road for us, and then round the hoo fields to the Angustias, when as it was ½ past 6 ha was obliged to go home. I walked nearly all the way on in front, and did not take much part in the conversation, but I believe it was not slow. The Shores were at home, and Arabella laughed at me till we returned home laden with books.

Thursday 30^th - Mama better and able to lie on the library sofa and listen to Mr Hewson’s reading. The Shores, Haywards, and Mr Montgomery called all the afternoon , and were very slow. Bella and Fanny went out riding and were joined by Mr Hewson.

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